Today we had our baseline sonogram for IVF#1. As you may recall, our goal for today was:
- lots of antral follicles (‘lots’ is relative; the most I’d ever had was 6, the fewest was 3…; more follicles ≈ better IVF outcomes)
- no ovarian cysts (I had a cyst visible on my last sonogram, and if it hadn’t resolved by now, we would have to delay IVF; small cyst + stims = really big cyst)
And [drumroll please…] I’m happy to announce that Dr. Y observed 7 follicles, and no cyst! We have been given the green light to proceed with our IVF protocol for this month.
My inner skeptic: To be fair, 7 is still a pretty terrible number for IVF and Dr. Y really really had to hunt to find the last one… Dr. Y also made a point of saying,
“There’s no guarantee that everyone on the guest list will show up to the party.”
Translation: Not all the follicles that we see today will be successfully harvested as mature eggs (and not all those eggs will successfully fertilize to embryos)…
My inner Pollyanna: It’s still the best AFC I’ve ever had and I’ll take it! My usually lazy right ovary doubled its production from last month (from 1 follicle to 2). Maybe it’s all the CoQ10 I’ve been taking. Maybe Dr. Y is being more liberal in his interpretation of what a ‘follicle’ is (Hell if I can see what he’s pointing to!) Maybe all your well-wishes/prayers/baby dust found their way through the ether to motivate my ovaries… Whatever it is, I’ll take it!
So now the plan is to continue my estrace and testosterone-priming for now, and start stims (injections and other goodies) at the end of next week. This also means that I no longer have an excuse to postpone forking over $1K for my non-Kaiser-covered drugs. You can expect upcoming posts on the chemistry of these new (to me) drugs, the biology behind my unconventional protocol (I’ve been doing some more research into this lately), and the finances of all this (I finally talked to the clinic financial administrator)…
But before I go, I’ve been thinking about this lovely post from Rain Before Rainbow. In it, redbluebird explains why she has chosen to keep her blog anonymous and not to share it with her IRL (in real life) friends and family.
By contrast, I’d say that this blog is semi-anonymous. I’ve avoided using any real names or photos of my face and have tried to be vague enough to minimize the temptation to find me out. But to be fair, anyone who knows me even a little bit who happens to come across this blog will easily figure out it’s me (my dogs and wedding photo are easy giveaways). Academics or chemistry-types who don’t already know me but who have even a slight detective bent could also find me using information on this blog. And if that weren’t enough, I’ve shared the blog with select friends and family members who want to follow along with our journey. (Judging by our IRL conversations, I’m pretty sure that only a small fraction of them actually read it.)
The downside of having some IRL acquaintances reading this blog is well articulated by redbluebird. For one thing, I can’t go into ‘angry infertile rant mode’, however much I might want to. (Not that I’d ever rant about anybody I’ve shared this blog with, but I’m afraid to rant about other people, lest someone I love even think that I might be ranting about them…) I also find myself watching my language (a bit) and being careful about TMI (a tiny bit).
But there are also clear advantages to sharing my blog with my IRL friends and family. The first is a major reason I started this blog – to avoid having to tell the same bad news, and explain the same sad lessons in reproductive biology over and over. In this regard, the blog has already served me quite well.
One unforeseen – and amazing – benefit is that a few especially empathetic IRL friends have used information from my blog to anticipate my moods and do exactly the right thing to make me feel awesome (or less awful, depending on the situation). Such was the case a few weeks ago, after a particularly demoralizing RE appointment. My friend A invited us over for dinner and had a bottle of good red wine waiting for me. 🙂
Or last night, when I arrived home from work to find a beautiful bouquet of flowers and a card from S & Q, wishing us Good Luck for our appointment this morning. I didn’t even know that they knew we had an appointment today!
Thank you S & Q for the amazing flowers! I hope at the end of all this we have some gorgeous hapa babies just like yours! And thank you to everyone (IRL and cyber friends alike) who are reading this and wishing us well. I firmly believe that it makes a difference!