Staying the course…for now

My period arrived last Sunday. I emailed Dr. Y to double check our course of action.

In particular, I wanted to see whether he thought we should start using stims (like Clomid or Menopur) to stimulate regular ovulation. Since losing Jane in July, I’ve had exactly three cycles, which were 26, 35, and 46 days long. (This trend is not particularly reassuring…) We also did a progesterone test this last cycle at 7 dpo, which came back at only 5.7 ng/mL. (I’m pretty sure it’s supposed to be higher – say, 10 ng/mL or more. Previous values from when I was trying to conceive C. Samuel and Jane were 24.5 and 9.6 ng/mL.)

Dr. Y said we can try Clomid if I want, but he doesn’t think it will be any more effective than natural cycle IUI. He does however recommend supplementing with those awful progesterone suppositories. Given my ever-changing ovulation date, he said we could try waiting to schedule my next ultrasound until my advanced OPK gives a ‘high’ reading. So we’re staying the course for now.

On Monday, I spoke to students and faculty from the Biology and Chemistry departments about losing Jane Margaret (sharing what happened and what I did to cope during my leave). The talk forced me to organize my thoughts about several things, which should eventually find their way into this blog.

Tuesday was the 6-month anniversary of losing Jane.

Back in the stirrups

Nearly six months after losing Jane, life has returned to some version of normal. I started back at work teaching on Tuesday, and on Wednesday we were finally able to accomplish our first natural cycle IUI since the loss.

So here I am in another two-week wait. It’s a strangely comfortable place to be.

headstone

Jane’s headstone at Christmas